That. Back home, everything was kind of starting to come together. I was going to make things right.

[ Sure, he'd lost Silver, but he'd gained Amelia's commendation. He'd done something good, and people were proud of him. ]

Now... I don't think I can do any of those things. Even with your help. Not if I'm... messed up, like this.

[ It's the same old fear, one that Jim's voiced a few times in Norfinbury, just with a new coat of paint. He screws things up, he's not capable, he's inadequate. ]