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((OOC: Zell may show messages to Jim Hawkins. If you do not want Jim to see/know, then please let me know.))

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[swatsflies]

Yup! Going with Jim to his world.

[ With everything he's leaving behind he has thought it through for some time now. With his world being in good hands, he knows he doesn't have to worry. ]

[swatsflies]

[ He's not being brave. He has to do this or he could... it's like someone dumped ice down his back from the chill running through him. Returning the squeeze as he leans close, despite the cat's slight protest, as he bumps their foreheads together. ]

I get it. It's the only way to keep going... [ It's heart breaking in it's own way. If they weren't here, they could cry for a long time and just shut themselves up inside where it's warm and safe without fear of monsters or succumbing to whatever illness they have. ] Maybe... when I'm frustrated or upset, I punch walls or shadow box. [ A beat. ] I don't recommend punching walls. [ Or trains. ] We could spar whenever you need to get it all out.

[rattlingthestars]

[ Jim can't be quite as happy as his boyfriend is - where Zell sees a solution, Jim just sees the miles and miles of hard work ahead - but Zell being happy, combined with the relief that at least it's something, makes Jim happy as well.

He settles in next to Zell, throwing half his body over his boyfriend's to keep him there, and rests his head on Zell's chest instead of a pillow. ]

I know you will. Partners?

[swatsflies]

[ Zell knows the journey will be worth the ending. If Jim starts feeling like he can accomplish things and that he has a future again, then it'll be all worth it.

Now he has a boyfriend half on him. Wrapping his arms around him as he nuzzles against the top of his head. Breathing everything in deeply and feeling pretty warm inside and out. There is hope, and he's going to keep reminding Jim of that. ]

Partners. I love you, Stars.

[armoured]

[There's a very long pause, and when Al's response come it's in a muted voice, devoid of any of the hope that's usually there.]

But it wasn't enough.

[heroproceeding]

They... can fly. [ Seriously, what the hell? That's both cool and kinda crazy. But hey, he'll work with it. Though he does kinda have to wonder... ]

But why did you need to move it in the first place?

[heroproceeding]

well I guess you should go. got business over there anyway right? gotta get his mom's approval and I don't think Kunsel counts there.

[ It's a stupid tease. The dumbest tease, but he saw that mom comment the other time. ]

seems like it'd be a nice place to go anyway. Jim says it's kinda boring but quiet and boring seems like it'd be a load off right now. warm food and beds would be a good bonus too.

YOUR SPIKE WILL BE THE SPIKE TO PIERCE THE HEAVENS, AL!

[swatsflies]

[ He places his hand on tablet as he heaves a heavy sigh. ]

I know it sucks. And it feels pretty shitty that it keeps happening. [ Curling up his hand into a fist. ] We just have to fix this frickin' place. Give it back it's power so it can bring everyone back. We'll make it happen, Al.

[rattlingthestars]

I... [ Jim hesitates. It's one of those times when he's not sure if he should tell Zell what's going on inside his head, for Zell's sake. What he's already said has already upset his boyfriend.

Partners, he reminds himself, as he brings up his hands to examine Zell's knuckles. ] I'm not sure there's anything there to get out. It's just numb.

[swatsflies]

[ It's like mini towns zooming through the air. Zell does tense a moment over the direction of the conversation is heading. Going back to fiddling with the tablet again to keep doing something, while he talks. ]

The Sorceress. She wanted to kill all SeeDs, so she decided to target Balamb and Trabia with missiles. [ After an interlude or something. ]

We manage to get Balamb Garden to safety, but... [ Not Trabia. He still remembers how messed up the place looks. Selphie was standing in front of the graves of her friends to tell them she accomplished their dreams. ] Admittance into them starts as young as five...

[swatsflies]

Hey, I thought he was your mom.
You don't really sound too sure.

[ His attention does shift over to Jim, who is also messaging Zack. He thinks for a moment before finishing his message. ]

It does seem like a great place.
Breathable space. Could you imagine?
The plan used to be going to just visit when I had the chance.

[swatsflies]

[ He lets Jim have his hand to investigate. He may be able to pick out the scars and scars on scars across his knuckles. Potions are a thing, but you couldn't stop in the middle to use one. Bumping the side of his face with his nose.

Feeling numb does raise his concern. It reminds him of being in shock until the entire thing crumbles down. He's not going to insist one way or another. Pressing a gentle kiss against a brow. ]

Are you okay with that? [ He might just be projecting, but he wouldn't be okay with that in Jim's place. but then he does the whole not dealing with things thing ]

[rattlingthestars]

[ Jim's quiet for long enough that it might seem like he fell asleep or something, but eventually he squeezes tight around Zell and makes a contented noise. ]

Love you.

[armoured]

No!

[It's immediate and horrified.]

That's-- that's the last thing we should be trying to do. I know we miss the people that are gone, but bringing them back from the dead isn't right. It's not-- it's not natural, Zell, we shouldn't be trying to get all of them back.

[heroproceeding]

I already had one mom that used to hover over me. I don't really need another.


but yeah. the space thing DOES seem pretty cool. it's hard for me to imagine it cause it's not like WE'VE gone there yet ourselves. but that doesn't mean it's not possible. but the BREATHING thing. I'm DEFINITELY gonna have to get used to that idea. still pretty weird.

so what made you change your mind?

[ Give or take they can go and just... go wherever they want. He's not so sure that will even be a thing... but it would be nice. ]

[heroproceeding]

[ Zell might have not said it outright, but Zack can fill in the blanks easily enough. Balamb had made it. Trabia hadn't been so lucky. Trabia hadn't been so lucky and there'd been kids on board that Garden. Zack's faint smile from before falls abruptly and soon enough, there's a hand on Zell's shoulder, giving it a squeeze. ]

Always seems like things like that... spares no one, huh.

[ It makes him think of Banora... and that had been a tiny town. If Gardens were safe havens for a whole bunch of people like it sounds like... It'd been a war, after all... ]

I'm sorry..

[swatsflies]

[ Whoa. He's taken aback by the reaction for a moment. ]

What's wrong with it? If we can save them... if we can save everyone, why shouldn't we try? [ Please explain, armor bro. ]

[rattlingthestars]

Mm.

[ Jim feels familiar with these scars by now, after the amount of time he's spent exploring Zell's hands. He doesn't like any of them - he'd rather Zell weren't hurt at all - but they're part of the package he loves. His thumb pauses where he'd been tracing one when Zell kisses him. ]

I think it's easier that I am. I can keep going. Enjoy doing stuff with you. Help.

/flees

[swatsflies]

[ Tucking his face against Jim's neck. Breathing in the smell of leather and everything else that makes up his boyfriend as he thinks it over. He'll just have to be okay with it until Jim is ready. Nuzzling him as he breathes out against his skin. ]

Alright. Whatever you need to keep going. [ Pausing. ] Just know that if you want to stop for a moment, I'm here. I'll remind you how to enjoy stuff again

[ He'll pick up the pieces and stick to his side no matter the squalls. ]

[armoured]

Because it's not saving them, they're--- they're already gone, Zell. You don't know what bringing them back does to them, or the world, you can't just do that.

@totheark; text; Day 217

[0thingsonmymind]

*He hasn't looked at his inbox yet or else he'd just respond to Zell there. He's having a hard time handling everything now, but a few people needed to know he wasn't still dead.*

i'm back

AND I THOUGHT I HIT SUBMIT FOR THIS TWO DAYS AGO

[swatsflies]

What if they aren't gone? What if there is still hope? I'm going to do whatever I can to find out, Al. I'm not giving up on any of them.

@zd; text

[swatsflies]

HEY! There you are.
Welcome back :)

[swatsflies]

[ Hovering moms is a foreign concept. ]

First space trip and it's going to have breathable air.

Because I have a new family.
And I have things I want to do. Places I want to see.

[ And someone he wants to spend his time with long term. ]

[swatsflies]

[ The squeeze is appreciated. Zell finds himself relaxing as he gives a nod. ]

Yeah, it does. [ Here's to hoping that this time the peace lasts a lot longer. ] We managed to get in up in the air at the last moment, too! We did take some damage, but we were alright. Once we got it fixed up I thought it was the best thing before Ragnorak.

[ Trying to stay on the more...cheerful side of the conversation. ]