[ Nope nope nope nope. He doesn't even want to think about this being forever. There is no way it's forever. In a few days, it'll go to normal. If it doesn't, he'll climb the walls to get to the center and make them change him back.
Everything hurts when he sees the next set of words again. I don't want you to see me as one of them. ]
I wouldn't. I could help you jim we can figure this out
[ Which doesn't make it much better. A lot of things race through his mind as to what he can say. He can't really think between his emotions running high.
Taking a deep breath and he concentrates on what he feels like he can actually do. That he wants to do. ]
[ Leaning against the wall of the skywalk as he looks to Morph as if to defer to the blobs' opinion. Said blob is making worried chittering sounds as he keeps looking through the glass for any sign of Jim below. ]
[ He smiles at that. Saving the image to change into his background later on. A reminder to look at until either someone finds a way to fix it or it reverses on it's own. Zell looks out the window of the skywalk and decides he'll do as he said. He'll keep going in hopes he's heading the right way. In case Jim needs him so he can be there quick. ]
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I could be your eyes, Stars.
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Even if it gets worse, you'll change back.
[ He's clinging desperately to that. ]
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[ Jim pauses typing, knowing what reading that will probably do to Zell, knowing he's being selfish. ]
I don't want you to see me as one of them.
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Everything hurts when he sees the next set of words again. I don't want you to see me as one of them. ]
I wouldn't.
I could help you jim
we can figure this out
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[ It wasn't hurting him. Jim was hurting him. ]
We can still figure it out.
[ He's skeptical they'll find anything they can do to make this better, but he's willing to try. ]
Just not in the same place.
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[ Which doesn't make it much better. A lot of things race through his mind as to what he can say. He can't really think between his emotions running high.
Taking a deep breath and he concentrates on what he feels like he can actually do. That he wants to do. ]
I'm going to find a way to fix this.
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[ There's a long pause, a blinking '...' on the other end as Jim writes and erases and rewrites something, but he never sends it. ]
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I want to wake up next to you soon.
[ So he has pretty strong motivation. ]
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I didn't want to leave.
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You can come back.
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Not gonna risk it.
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What if I think it's worth the risk?
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Zell, if I hurt you. Really hurt you.
[ Not like the bruises Zell had given him. ]
I'd lose it.
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I
I'll keep going.
That way maybe I can get there if you need me.
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Please stay safe.
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Love you, Stars. I'll keep in contact.
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Or just to hear my voice...
I'm here Stars.
I'll come running if you tell me.
[ There is so much more he wants to say, but it'll only hurt more. ]
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I'll call when it's safe.
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[ He wants...something. Reassurance Jim will come back. That he's worth coming back to. Anything... ]
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Promise.
that's a wrap