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((OOC: Zell may show messages to Jim Hawkins. If you do not want Jim to see/know, then please let me know.))

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Day 242 audio; @dreamsnhonor

[heroproceeding]

[ With Jim going off on his own like he has and Zell suddenly gone, too, it really doesn't take much to put two and two together. Doesn't take much at all. He doesn't know if Zell even has a lead on him, but he does know one thing. If Jim's right, then someone really ought to be tracking him down, trying to help him keep it together. And worst case? Well..

Hopefully, there won't be a worse case and it won't have to come down to what precautions they've talked about. Zack cuts to the chase quick all the same. ]

I'd be telling you Jim's gone, but I'm pretty sure you already know that. S'why you vanished, too, isn't it.

[ There's no anger or accusation in his words. But there's definitely something tight and uneasy to his voice. This feels like such a mess, but what would he even be able to do to help them? He's a danger in it of itself. ]

I have an idea

[swatsflies]

[ This is him?.

For a moment a girl with blue on is there. Jim would recognize her from the card of Rinoa.

Is that your grandfather, Zell? She turns to look but fades away again. ]

Yeah, that's him. Meet my grandfather! Those are his old guns he used.

[ Then he remembers something! ] They are loaded.

[ Just in case Jim wants to fiddle with his guns. Zell put his hand on the small of Jim's back as he moves past to sit on his bed. ]

[rattlingthestars]

Exactly like that.

I can't

My eyes keep going black.

[rattlingthestars]

[ Jim's settling in his arms, but he leans back too at the tone in Zell's voice and studies his face, apparently trying to work out what happened just by looking at him. His boyfriend's face is expressive, but Jim's not that good at reading people. ]

-No.

[ He says, finally. ]

Nothing's okay.

[swatsflies]

[ Not good is what happened. Well maybe some good, but Zell knows Zack can be pretty stubborn. ]

Yeah. It's shit.

[ Leaning close to brush a quick kiss against Jim's forehead. ]

I've seen them before on accident.

[swatsflies]

Going black? What do you mean by that?

[swatsflies]

We found some there before. Might be some more there now. [ It has been a while since they went through there. ] Man, they just need to put the hot water next to the laundry room and people would be set.

[spoileralert]

Well, I'll have to see what I can find. I don't want to lose too much time wandering around.

:o

[rattlingthestars]

[ Maybe he's getting used to this place. The echo of Rinoa feels only a little strange; he shakes off the disconcerted feeling and turns back to the guns.

Zell was right to warn him, because Jim's already taking the smaller of the set off the display before: ]

Can I?

[ Already the way they work is echoing between them, unsure if it's coming from Jim's mind or Zell's. Jim's hands dance over each part, caressing the hammer and the barrel. ]

[rattlingthestars]

Them...?

[ Suddenly Jim's not completely sure what Zell's talking about, and he's not actually sure he can handle any more shocking revelations tonight.

That's never actually stopped him before, though. ]

Zell, what are you talking about?

[rattlingthestars]

I can't see anything.

[swatsflies]

I could help you.
I could be your eyes, Stars.

[swatsflies]

[ He manages to keep himself from just blabbing it immediately. Pulling face back to search Jim's eyes for a moment. Trying to see if there is some understanding. Once he figures out Jim doesn't really have a clue he answers quietly. ]

His scars.

[ Bringing up a hand to poke himself in the chest for emphasize. ]

I saw 'em. He said he would talk to you guys about them.

Re: :o

[swatsflies]

yes you can play with my gun bb. shoot off a load ;D

[swatsflies]

[ Giving a grin as he nods. He's still on cloud nine that Jim is even in his frickin' room. ]

Yeah, you can. They probably aren't like the guns from your world.

[ Already his mind is trying to figure out how they are different. ]

What's your room like?

[swatsflies]

Yeah, there are still butts for you to kick. Right?

[spoileralert]

Are there? I just want to get back to exploring.

[swatsflies]

Miller and anyone else who might be running this place. [ To the center! ] Also some people around here might need it for good measure.

[swatsflies]

[ For a moment his heart leaps thinking Jim might have had second thoughts. Then he sees the name on the screen and he feels a sense of dread bubbling up. He didn't talk to Zack before looking for Jim with Morph. Giving a look to the pink critter that was chittering away and looking through the glass of the skywalk in hopes of spotting his friend. Calling Zack back and talking quietly as to not worry the critter. ]

Hey, Zack. [ His voice lacks it's usual upbeat cadence. ] Yeah, I know. Morph was worried about 'im so we went looking together. [ A pause as Morph hears his name. ] Told Kunsel we'll check around real quick and... [ It went a whole hell lot longer than he really thought it would. ]

[spoileralert]

Right, yeah...

[ She sighs. ]

Sorry. I'm so tired lately it's hard to think sometimes.

[rattlingthestars]

Not like this. It's going to get worse.

[swatsflies]

You'll change back
Even if it gets worse, you'll change back.

[ He's clinging desperately to that. ]

[rattlingthestars]

If I don't

[ Jim pauses typing, knowing what reading that will probably do to Zell, knowing he's being selfish. ]

I don't want you to see me as one of them.

[swatsflies]

[ Nope nope nope nope. He doesn't even want to think about this being forever. There is no way it's forever. In a few days, it'll go to normal. If it doesn't, he'll climb the walls to get to the center and make them change him back.

Everything hurts when he sees the next set of words again. I don't want you to see me as one of them. ]

I wouldn't.
I could help you jim
we can figure this out

[rattlingthestars]

It was already hurting you, Zell. When when we were racing...

[ It wasn't hurting him. Jim was hurting him. ]

We can still figure it out.

[ He's skeptical they'll find anything they can do to make this better, but he's willing to try. ]

Just not in the same place.