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Jim name is now Mim. Mim, Morph, and Mochi's adventures.

[swatsflies]

[ Lifting his gaze up to see the best thing going in his life at the moment. Giving a wordless nod in answer to his question, before looking at the two critters. He ran out of hands, Jim. This is a serious predicament. Nodding towards his lap after a moment. ]

Come here.

[ He's going to have to play stack the animals on Jim to be able to hold them all as soon as he does get comfortable. That is the only way, right? Scritching Mochi's chin. ]

my gif link won't work ;;

[rattlingthestars]

[ Morph, at least, is easy to please. He squiggles around to the other side to make room for Jim automatically as Jim settles into Zell's lap. He accepts Mochi without comment and offers him a scratch behind the ears in acknowledgement before turning his attention back on Zell. ]

-Guess you saw the news already.

aww ;-; it looks like part of the url cut off

[swatsflies]

[ Looks like he can have them all. Once Jim is settled, Zell is burying his face into the crook of Jim's neck. Taking a moment to steady his breathing, while trying to figure out what to really say. It's exactly as Jim might have guess. Zell saw the names on the network. At first he couldn't believe it, but after seeing the responses, it really was setting in. A few names hit him the hardest. ]

I. I should have talked to them more.

ALAS.

[rattlingthestars]

They knew.

[ It's all Jim really can say. Maybe Zell should've, but it can't be changed now. ]

They'd be crazy not to know you cared.

[swatsflies]

[ He leans more against Jim, while he reassures him. ]

He could be pretty stubborn... [ Mumbled against his shoulder. It took a long time, and the force separation before Beckett showed how much he worried for Zell. ]

I'm sure they'll come back. They have to. There's still a lot they can do.

[rattlingthestars]

Not that stubborn.

[ Beckett may not have liked how much Zell cared, it may have made him uncomfortable, but Jim's absolutely certain he knew. ]

There's a lot of exploring left. Lot of things that need her name on them.

[swatsflies]

Yeah, she does. She's pretty amazing and strong. Man, remember when she shared that story on the network?

[ It made Zell and Kunsel seem like a hero at least. Giving him a tight squeeze as he presses a quick kiss against Jim's cheek. He knows Jim cares for Kesara, too. ]

She's going to want to know all the details of everything found.

[rattlingthestars]

Then we're going to have to do a good job documenting it all.

[ Beckett would want to know everything, too, though his interests are different. Jim leans his head into Zell. ]

Good thing you're valiant enough for the job.

[swatsflies]

[ Nuzzling against his face in response to the lean. ]

You should send her a message with everything we find. Show her what a kid can do. [ Remembering their little feud with ages. Shifting his hand up to tangle his fingers in Jim's hair. ]

And I'm swift as an eagle with a fine chest. [ A pause.] It helps that I have the best partner who'll catch me when I fall. [ Or kiss his wounds better after a fall. ]

[rattlingthestars]

[ Zell gets an offended huff at the reminder of being called a kid. He really doesn't feel like it, especially not on days like today. ]

We'll keep a log. Anything we find, we'll send the second she shows back up on the network.

[ As for the rest... ] Wish I could do more than catch, Sunshine.

[swatsflies]

[ It's cute when Jim looks offended. If this was better circumstances and if the pets weren't there, he might tickle Jim.

Nuzzling against his shoulder as he sighs. ] Yeah, we will. Document everything we find and how it may connect to things. [ It sounds pretty useful for anyone who may come in the future as well.

He leans back to try to meet his eyes. ] You do more than catch. You do so much more, Jim.

[rattlingthestars]

Not on days like today. [ Jim meets his eyes and raises his eyebrows. He knows there's nothing comforting to be said, though at least they have a plan now. ] But I've got you.

[swatsflies]

Especially on days like today. [ Brushing his thumb against Jim's cheek. ] This is enough until we can find a way to stop it for good. [ Being mindful of the animal companions as he leans up to kiss Jim's forehead. ]

How about you?

[rattlingthestars]

[ He doesn't really want to answer, so mumbling as he tilts his forehead down for Zell seems like a good idea. ]

What about me?

[swatsflies]

[ Brushing away Jim's hair. ]

I want to help you, too. [ Bumping their foreheads together. ] You don't have to always be brave for me. We're supposed to share the good and bad, right?

[rattlingthestars]

I'm not being brave. [ Jim captures Zell's hand and squeezes it. ] It's... We've been here about six months, right? And I don't think a day's gone by that someone hasn't died. And at first every one hurt so bad.

[ He sucks in a breath, trying to gather his thoughts. ]

Even the ones that were strangers. Tadashi, Cloud, Hiro... [ Those had been worse than bad. Jim rubs his hand over his own eyes, shielding them for a moment. ] You remember what happened. What I did. After that ... I guess I couldn't let it hurt that much anymore.

[swatsflies]

[ He's not being brave. He has to do this or he could... it's like someone dumped ice down his back from the chill running through him. Returning the squeeze as he leans close, despite the cat's slight protest, as he bumps their foreheads together. ]

I get it. It's the only way to keep going... [ It's heart breaking in it's own way. If they weren't here, they could cry for a long time and just shut themselves up inside where it's warm and safe without fear of monsters or succumbing to whatever illness they have. ] Maybe... when I'm frustrated or upset, I punch walls or shadow box. [ A beat. ] I don't recommend punching walls. [ Or trains. ] We could spar whenever you need to get it all out.

[rattlingthestars]

I... [ Jim hesitates. It's one of those times when he's not sure if he should tell Zell what's going on inside his head, for Zell's sake. What he's already said has already upset his boyfriend.

Partners, he reminds himself, as he brings up his hands to examine Zell's knuckles. ] I'm not sure there's anything there to get out. It's just numb.

[swatsflies]

[ He lets Jim have his hand to investigate. He may be able to pick out the scars and scars on scars across his knuckles. Potions are a thing, but you couldn't stop in the middle to use one. Bumping the side of his face with his nose.

Feeling numb does raise his concern. It reminds him of being in shock until the entire thing crumbles down. He's not going to insist one way or another. Pressing a gentle kiss against a brow. ]

Are you okay with that? [ He might just be projecting, but he wouldn't be okay with that in Jim's place. but then he does the whole not dealing with things thing ]

[rattlingthestars]

Mm.

[ Jim feels familiar with these scars by now, after the amount of time he's spent exploring Zell's hands. He doesn't like any of them - he'd rather Zell weren't hurt at all - but they're part of the package he loves. His thumb pauses where he'd been tracing one when Zell kisses him. ]

I think it's easier that I am. I can keep going. Enjoy doing stuff with you. Help.

/flees

[swatsflies]

[ Tucking his face against Jim's neck. Breathing in the smell of leather and everything else that makes up his boyfriend as he thinks it over. He'll just have to be okay with it until Jim is ready. Nuzzling him as he breathes out against his skin. ]

Alright. Whatever you need to keep going. [ Pausing. ] Just know that if you want to stop for a moment, I'm here. I'll remind you how to enjoy stuff again

[ He'll pick up the pieces and stick to his side no matter the squalls. ]

i keep trying to reply and laughing like an idiot goddamn it

[rattlingthestars]

When this is all over...

[ When they're home, or somewhere like it. When Jim believes they're safe. ]

Maybe then I can. Until then I'm going to do my best to keep us moving.

not the only time something arrived early huh ;D

[swatsflies]

When this is over, let's just lay in bed for a few days straight. [ He's lowering his voice as he moves to press his mouth close to Jim's ear. Don't need any pink bubble gum looking critters repeating anything ]

Make a fort and ignore everything.

winkwonk

[rattlingthestars]

A fort in front of the fire. [ Jim uses Zell's closeness to steal a kiss from his jaw. ] Won't move for anything.

Re: winkwonk

[swatsflies]

[ Turning into him to press a kiss against his cheek. ]

Maybe we can convince Morph and Mochi to bring us food. [ That would be a good trick for the critters to learn.

The whole thing sounds pretty perfect though. Some where away from the snow where it's safe and warm. Some where they can call home. Moving a hand to brush his knuckles against the side of Jim's face. ]